My Scatterbrain

Since, again, I have NO clue what to write tonight, I'm just gonna post a bunch of random thoughts. Basically just whatever comes to my head.

First, my arm/neck/shoulder hurts AS USUAL. It's seeming to get better, but not fast enough. I've had this shit before, so it's PROBABLY gonna be lingering my entire life, I'm guessing. Speaking of things NOT healing, the HUGE bruise on my right arm, one of the biggest I've ever seen on me in my life, or really anyone I can think of, is STILL not fully healed yet. The lump's still kinda there, a little, and the right-half is gone, but the left is still dark purple , slowly fading away, and ALL from swinging on the swings like now almost three weeks ago? Really? If so, goddamn.

I'm always right, but when I'm REALLY right, when I'm sure about something and see it RIGHT before my eyes, goddamn, it makes me feel good. I'm fucking BRILLIANT, and it sucks that SO few people realize it, or truly compliment me on it either. Hell, the ONLY compliments I get are about my "brains" and even then, it's rare.

Bleh. People RARELY fucking talk about me, and then when I hear ACTUAL "evidence" of it, it's fuckin stupid shit. Some stupid girl blabbing about all the school loans I have, like it's her fucking business. No talk about my novel, my photography, my smarts, my kindness, my helpfulness, patience, understanding, and a TRILLION other awesome things about me. Nope, JUST my goddamn loans. Fantastic. Now people who hear that have this bad thought in their head about me, like I'm "bad" with money, when the problem is, I DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY! If I EVER had any, and when I DO have any, I'm actually GOOD with it, so it's all fucking retarded and pisses me the fuck off. Fuck them and their stupid blabby mouths. I'm awesome, so spread the word, fuckers.

At this point, I've been up like almost 21 hours, from 10am Sunday til now, 6:36am. I'm feeling out of it, often fucking up on my typing, but hey, good for me. I'm a... something.

Yeah, I'm too tired, so I'll just be done here. Decent day, MORE shit got cancelled (SHOCKING!!!) but hey, life goes on. Hopefully things will EVENTUALLY happen and get better. We'll see, as I keep on saying at the end of these blogs...